"I contain multitudes."

Only For a Few Years

Small victories
fought and won
on futons and on leather chairs,
long walks home 
(slow in solitude,
quick footed and 
accompanied by nervous heartbeats
when confronted with
tall strangers),
strangers and their stash,
hazy conversations about
Toronto and
places we’ll never see,
beers stolen from
mini fridges in the darkness,
backyard parties and 
stolen kisses,
calling it an early night
at 4am,
new faces and
see through shirts,
and swing dancing on the 
dirty kitchen floor.

I’ve never seen one person love another the way I watched my grandpa love my grandpa. In the 16 months she’s been gone, there hasn’t been a day I don’t see him cry.

Tonight, he got on his bicycle and went out looking for her and fell off. I think he just wants to be done. I can’t imagine loving someone that much. 

i’m not good at college

I don’t like
where girls
advertise their
fun times
on instagram
while their friends
do the same.

I stand in the corner with my
dead phone in my
pocket and
plan my escape.

I think that if there 
were a time in my life
that I will be very happy,
it is this:

Driving home,
underneath the 
going under the speed limit
past fields and farms,
with my hand on anothers,
sleeping babies in the back seat and
the radio muted.

Not this basement,
not this sticky floor, 
not these crop tops,
not these filters,
not this inadequacy.


Madly involved in the
sport of 
throwing stones
in plastic homes,
we are perfecting
our pitch and 
laughing at the 
emptiness of 
the outfield. 

But, you see,
it is empty like
the ocean is empty-
and floating is always an option.

You maybe need a 
nice big 
sail boat,
you’ve just been used to
row boats
so you never stopped long
enough to find your 
arms tired.

(When I go forwards, you go backwards
And somewhere we will meet.)

"The Type"

-Sarah Kay

Alone at 3am

I have 
dodged a 
million of you
"6 foot 2 with
dark hoodie,
mid twenties,
expect more
updates and info,
stay safe out there”s,
am I the only 
one seeing
(other suns?)
in the sewer grates 
outside my 
front door?

Safety Lamp

My neighbor sells
but he keeps all his
lights on at night
for fear of the

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